What do you want to become? What is the purpose of your life? What is the right thing to do? Sometimes these questions are more intense than other times. I, myself, have been dealing with these questions a lot lately and I have been wondering what the hell I am doing. I guess some of us have a clear vision and will do everything to make it happen. Others might not, and they might feel like there is too much out there: Too much to explore, see, experience, learn and do. I am definitely one of those people who wants to do everything, help everyone and be everything.

And if you are like me, you probably find it hard too. To figure out what you want. Because you might want it all. Right? You want to see the world, become a reporter, write a book, open a clothing line, watch every sunset, drink coffee in a new city every day, listen to random people’s stories. But, also, you want to feel safe and loved. Have your own place, maybe get kids one day or maybe you don’t. You might want to get married, wake up and have a routine, eat pizza on Saturdays and watch soccer and randomly meet your friends in the grocery store.

For me it’s two different worlds where I can’t really decide either one, I just can’t choose. I am just searching for feelings: When do I laugh. When do I feel safe. When do I feel good, pretty, useful, inspired, worthy. And then when I find it I try to hold on to it as long as I can. Because in the end I think we all are just searching for happiness and a good life, or maybe we found it and we try to hold on to it. But I guess happiness also changes. It’s not static, it changes when we grow, and we have to look in new directions to find it again in different ways than last time we looked.

What I want to become, or who I want to be, is not clear for me and I don’t think it is for a lot of kids my age. We are curious, but also scared. And I think we all can agree that it’s not easy to figure it out, but I do believe the road there are leading us towards something really good. Whatever it might be, I think, as long as you search for the best of everything and true happiness, you’ll find it.

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Would be nice to hear what you think about this topic. I am so into this and could talk about it foreveeeer. Anyways, I also want to thank you for following me. I never thought I would do this, but I am. And I appreciate every click, like and comment I get. Big hug